Wednesday, February 26, 2014

Weight Shaming

Have you seen/heard something like this?

 


Few things in life make me extremely angry and insulted, and one of them is women posting crap like this on Facebook, Tumblr, or whatever.

As a skinny girl all my life, I've heard everything thrown to me such as:
  • I wish I was a thin as you...
  • You're so boney!
  • You should order a Big Mac and put some meat on your bones.
  • I want your body!
  • Do you even eat?
While I do receive "compliments" on how skinny I am, trust me, most of them is someone criticizing my (perfectly fine) eating habits, and I hate it. What gives you the right to question my eating habits and throw insults about how I'm "skin and bones"?

Weight shaming is a double standard. Women, especially those on the heavier side, feels that they have every right to insult skinnier women with comments like, "Geez, do you ever eat? Order a cheeseburger!" and sharing insulting pictures that only dogs wants us. But, as soon as we turn the tables around, the skinnier women will receive backlash for being a bully. Seriously, what's the difference between a heavier women calling someone skins and bones, and a skinnier women calling someone fat? Nothing.


What these bullies needs to understand that just because I'm skinny, doesn't mean that I'm not beautiful or unwanted. It doesn't mean that I'm about to disappear through the cracks.

It means that I have a fast metabolism. It means eating healthy and exercising. It means maintaining a healthy lifestyle. It means that I still have insecurities. Naturally, I just have a fast metabolism, and you know what? It bugs me. It really does. I feel like no matter how much I eat, I can't gain weight. It's a personal goal of mines to donate blood, but I don't reach the requirement of 110lbs to donate. It's hard for me to even reach 100 lbs.

If losing weight is hard for you, just realize that there are some people that struggle to gain weight. As silly as that sounds, there are millions of people, myself included, that struggles to gain weight (without an eating disorder), and that's due to our lifestyles, fast metabolism and/or food preferences.



 

Those three images are probably taken at my heaviest weight. Why? Because I was on vacation for a month overseas and like all vacationers, we gain weight away from home. I gain a lot of weight when I'm on vacation because I have relatives that spoils me by taking me out for breakfast, lunch, and dinner because they haven't seen me in ages. As the only Canadian in my extended family on my Dad's side, you can probably tell how excited everyone in China will get when they hear that I'm stopping by. Everytime I head to China, believe it or not, but I don't eat at home. My lifestyle in China consists of visiting restaurants on a daily basis about 2-3 times a day (and if you're Asian, let's not forget the late midnight street food vendors).

But if that's roughly at my heaviest weight, and at the sight of those arms and legs, imagine how skinny I am on a regular basis. To have insults thrown indirectly at me, and people nagging me to eat cheeseburgers (newsflash, I live at McDonald's... as disgusting as that sounds).

Women of every size, we need to stop this weight shaming and targets on skinnier women. We are beautiful, no matter what size we are. We are happy, we are comfortable, and we are healthy. You hear people say never judge a book by its cover, so why are we judging each other by our sizes? Men (and women) will love you no matter what. There are men that will choose heavier women, and men that will choose skinnier women. That's just preferences, no different than being attracted to brown eyes than to blue eyes.

Tuesday, February 25, 2014

That Moment I Made the Simpliest Stalking Mistake

I hate LinkedIn.

Long story short, I Googled a girl whom's great friends with this guy, and although I'm not entirely jealous of her (she's in a long term relationship), I am a bit jealous of their friendship and the boy's ex from years ago was also her sister. Curiously enough, I wanted to "know" more about her.

Lo and behold, when I Googled her name, her LinkedIn profile appeared. I ended up clicking on it WITH my LinkedIn account logged in. Needless to say, the profile proved nothing and I appeared on her recently visited list... and if you're not the CEO of Nintendo, I'm pretty sure not many people will visit a profile of a random Vancouvrite.


Today, I looked at my recently visited list after months of not logging onto LinkedIn.

And yes, she also looked at my profile. I can only image her telling her boyfriend, or her sisters, or worst of all, the boy, that I've been creeping on her. Or, maybe, she just kept it to herself. Although, if I'm going to be honest, if the boy ever did confront me on it, I would've made up just a little white lie about recruiting experiences.

Also, I found out my ex from high school looked at my profile. I don't want to creep on his but from the little blurb, apparently he's a "new manager" of Pillsbury. I guess he doesn't take LinkedIn seriously.

But, if you're ever on LinkedIn... make sure you log off before creeping on someone.

Sunday, February 23, 2014

HOCKEY IS CANADA'S GAME

Yes, technically we have 5 minutes left in the Gold medal game against Sweden...

But at this point, we all know Canada won GOLD, AGAIN!!!!


Well done, boys.
Well fucking done.

I am happy.
I am (will be) in tears.
Canada is happy.

Saturday, February 22, 2014

Product Review: Garnier Fruictis Damage Eraser

I'm back with another product review on the new Garnier Fruictis Damage Eraser all thanks to Influenster!

 

This was my first Voxbox so I was extremely happy. I was chosen because of the condition of my hair: damaged, dull, no volume and no shine.

The Garnier Fructis Damage Eraser claims 90% of hairs strength reconstructed from root to tip.

Before Garnier chose to send me the samples, I've always enjoyed their products. I loved how they have a wide collection of scents to choose from, and they always left my hair feeling soft.

The Damage Eraser line includes:
  • Fortifying Shampoo: Reconstructs and preserves strength for strong hair that looks rejuvenated.
  • Fortifying Conditioner: Reconstructs and preserves strength for strong hair that looks rejuvenated.
  • Split Ends Bandage Serum: Each drop helps to prevent split ends and reconstructs and preserves hair's strength.
  • Strength Reconstructing Butter: Rich, indulgent butter is designed to intensely reconstruct hair's strength for strong, rejuvenated and shiny-looking hair. Use weekly for optimal results.
From the Influenter Voxbos, it didn't include the reconstructing butter. My experience? I loved it. Simple as that.

The scent of the shampoo wasn't fruity, but it didn't smell bad either. The conditioner made my hair the softest I've ever felt. Once the conditioner was washed off, oh my, my hair was super smooth and soft, I literally couldn't stop touching it. I've never used a split ends oil before so this was my first. My hair is damaged due to the colouring and after the first couple of uses of the splits end serum, I've noticed my ends were extremely healthy. Personally, I don't like using oils because it leaves this scent and oily feeling on your hair and hands but surprisingly, the oil doesn't stick to your hands after rubbing it into your hair. Nor does it leave a scent! That's a big bonus for me - oil without the fuss.

The next morning, after air drying my hair, I've noticed the smoothness of my hair. Volume has increased, especially in my bangs! I couldn't keep them flat whatsoever. My hair bounced much more when I'm walking. As for shine? I felt like I could see it in specific angles of lighting, but in general, I didn't notice any shine.

Garnier Fruictis Damage Eraser
In conclusion, if you have damaged and no volume hair, I'll recommend this line. Out of all the shampoos I've ever used, I think I saw significant improvement on my hair from the Damage Eraser line. If you're not interested in the shampoo and conditioner for whatever reason, I highly recommend the splits end serum. I've never had such ease with oils before and this affordable little product did repair my splits ends. Ever since using it, I haven't gotten any - and this is coming from someone that regularly dyes her hair!

*Disclaimer: This is a sponsored review from Influenster and Garnier, however, my opinions on these products are entirely mines and 100% honest.

Wednesday, February 19, 2014

"Sir, I can't write my exam because I need to catch the hockey game."

"You are too Canadian."

You know what happens on Friday?? ;)
Yeeee, that's what's happening!
(It's the USA vs. Canada men's hockey game in Sochi).


Today, a classmate tried to give me a wet willy... in class.
Disgusting! 
I mean, we're not even friends...
So, you don't even have the right to stick your finger in my ear.


Today also consisted of telling my professor that I can't write Friday's exam due to the iconic USA vs. Canada game... (and that ain't even the gold medal game). My professor (from the Philippines) still can't grasp how 'Canadians' put hockey above everything else. 

Prof, I wish I knew why I put Babcock's team ahead of my education, too. I really do.


I also told my professor that if we lose to US, I'm not coming to school because I'd be too upset.

I'd be furious, too.

Hockey is Canada's game!
!!!

And finally, I'd leave you with Eddie's tweet for me:

In 7 years, I'll make a new blog that documents my marriage with Eddie. 
Otherwise, keep a look out for my introductory post of 'Jeddie' ;)
It'll happen... you guys just wait.... wait.

PS:

Monday, February 17, 2014

Why I do an Annual Social Media Cleanse

I am part of the generation that grew up with computers and internet. Granted, I wasn't as savy back then compared to the kids today but nonetheless, I grew up with Windows 98 and Windows XP (Whoooo!). I was those kids that spent hours on Neopets and Barbie and yes, one of those kids that fought over the computer with her older brother when our 1 hour has gone by and it was time to switch and "take turns".

This is my 3rd year (if I remember correctly...) that I've done a social media cleanse. I'm not going to lie, by social media, I meant Facebook. I needed Twitter just to feel that little connection. Oh, and I believe I kept Instagram too because I felt like Instagram was just a photo sharing app.

I started my cleanse as part of Lent and back when I completed my first Lent season, I wasn't even a Christian. I thought of it as a challenge.

If you compare Facebook to marriage/love... you need help. ASAP.
One of my ex's used to be obsessed with Facebook. As soon as we'd come home, he'll open up his computer and spend hours on Facebook... hours!! I'll admit, back then I use to be a Facebook addict, and I'm talking hours on Facebook doing nothing but after my first cleanse, I spend about 20 mins max on Facebook if I'm not talking to anyone. 

The screenshot above is actually one of my friend's statuses last month. I called him out on it, telling him how pathetic he was to compare Facebook as a relationship. He shamefully admits his addiction is out of control and I believe he's taking a break from FB, I'm not too sure.

My experience with my first social media cleanse was hard. I found myself constantly coming back to the Facebook homepage during the first 3 days. I spammed my Twitter timeline because it was the only thing available. I lost a lot of invites and missed some gossip/"life moments" because my Facebook was deactivated.

But after 40 days (Lent allows you to have a 'break' and indulge on Sundays but my cleanses last all 40 days), I felt... free. I was so happy to know that Facebook doesn't control me anymore. I look at all my friends with pity when I see how addicted and dependant on Facebook they are. I feel much more productive now that I can allocate those wasted FB hours into something good.

I broke habits too. I use to Facebook stalk people but after 40 days of not seeing their profile, I was happier. Now, believe it or not, I don't Facebook creep anyone. When I add people, I don't even go through their photos or profile. I broke the creeping/stalking habit just by one cleanse. I deserve a cookie!

All I'm saying is, in a time where social media dictates our lives, I think a lot of us need to gain back control and focus our time and energy on different things. Just by giving up Facebook for 40 days, I felt happier, stronger, more in control, and productive! I can't believe I use to spend hours on that stupid site.

Here are a few tips for those who want to challenge themselves and break the social media control:
  • Deactivate your Facebook account. I don't mean logging out and not logging back in, I mean, go to the deactivation page and confirm the deactivation of your account.
  • If you're new to a social media cleanse, keep Twitter and/or Instagram. Keep a social media outlet that is "smaller" than Facebook, if that makes sense.
  • You can download plug ins for your browser to block certain sites.
  • If you get the urge to log onto Facebook, step away from the computer and do something else. 
  • Or, visit a different page or start streaming a new movie.
  • Keep away from Facebook talk. If you're around a conversation that started with "Did you see on Facebook that ___________....." then excuse yourself.
  • Tell people you're taking a break from Facebook/social media. You'll be surprised at how many will congratulate you for being so strong.
  • If people ask for your FB account, explain to them you're taking a break and tell them you'll add them back later. NEVER LET THAT HOT BOY THAT WANTS YOUR FACEBOOK PAGE BREAK YOUR CLEANSE!!!
If you successfully complete a cleanse (it doesn't have to be 40 days), look back and notice what changed since deactivating your Facebook. I'll promise you that you'll feel much happier and stronger. You'll probably even notice that you can't stand Facebook anymore and probably only spend 10 minutes on that thing.

Let me know if you've ever done a cleanse or consider doing one!
This year for Lent, I'm doing a massive social media cleanse. For the first time, I'm deactivating all three big outlets: Facebook, Twitter and Instagram!

Sunday, February 16, 2014

Business Review: VisionPros.ca

VisionPros.ca home page.
VisionPros.ca is an online Canadian store that supplies customers a wide range of available contact lenses. They ship throughout Canada and the United States.

Being a (broke) student, I wanted to save money on my contact lenses. I know wearing my glasses will save me money but after wearing them for about 2 months, I've missed my contact lenses soooo much! I searched online and came across VisionPros. I was a bit skeptical at first because even though I've found it through Google, I couldn't believe how cheap the prices per box were! They have thousands of Facebook fans and an updated Facebook fan page but I still needed to read actual reviews from customers. Unfortunately, I didn't come across any reviews but for every contact lenses they were selling, at the end of the page were consumer reviews and everyone of them were positive. I try to stay away from reviews that are on the actual website but seeing that those were the only reviews (and on Facebook) from real customers, I decided to put my trust in VisionPros.

Which is why I'm writing this review. If you were in my position, stumbling across VisionPros but being a bit skeptical at first, I'll present to you the first review for this business!

I originally only purchased two boxes of my contact lenses because, like I've stated, I was a bit skeptical at first. Despite buying only two boxes, they were still cheaper than what I would've gotten if I went to my optical store. However, about 99% of their contact lenses has a "wholesale" price, I guess you can call it; if you purchase 4 boxes, or even 6 boxes (depending on daily/weekly/monthly lenses), the prices will be cheaper per box.

I remember placing my order on Thursday, getting my ordered processed and shipped out on Friday and it arrived on Monday. Keep in mind that my shipping was only one day because I live in Vancouver and they ship out from Surrey, BC.


Nice packaging!

What the box contained: my contact lenses, discount code, lens container and receipt.
VisionPros offers a 7% discount code on their Facebook page from time to time and offers free shipping for orders over $99.

They also have a great exchange/refund policy! If they messed up on your order or your lenses were defective upon arrival, VisionPros will gladly exchange/refund you with free shipping both ways. They also have a 110% price guarantee but I doubt there's any other business that sells their lenses as cheap as VisionPros. I've even compared with Clearly Contacts and discovered that VisionPros saves me $5-10 on my order. And of course, who wouldn't want to save a few bucks and reinvest it in a nice Starbucks latte?

Also, keep in mind that there's also a small fee for handling warranty (I believe? I forgot). Many online contact lenses store has a handling fee including Clearly Contacts. In my experience, the cost of my lenses plus shipping and handling fees still came cheaper than Clearly Contacts.

In conclusion, I'm glad that I gave VisionPros a try instead of running to my local optical store. VisionPros offers discounts on already low priced contact lenses, extremely fast shipping and processing, and great exchange/refund policies.

 Business Name: VisionPros
Website: VisionPros.ca
Telephone:1-888-404-7317
Address: 19138 26th Avenue,
Surrey, BC, V3S 3V7


*Disclaimer: This is not a paid review. I am in no way affiliated with VisionPros.ca; my experience with VisionPros has been provided with my own money.

Saturday, February 15, 2014

#2014BloggerChallenge - Brand Names vs Drugstore Names


This is going to be a fun subject! Personally, I like to save money whenever I can, and that being said, you'll probably guess I'm more of a "drugstore brand names" girl, or even just a regular no name brand girl.

Make-Up/Beauty Products
As someone that seldom wears make-up and splurge on beauty tools, I can't justify spending $50+ on a MAC foundation or even $20 on the ever so popular make-up blender tool. I can understand beauty gurus, bloggers, and make-up wearers forking over hundreds of dollars a month on beauty products, but I can never spend more than $10 on make-up. Most of my beauty tools such as eyelash curlers, brushes, and even my "make-up blender" is actually from eBay, and most of them are only $0.99 USD. I love Rimmel London so most of my make-up us from their line and each product is under $10 CAD. I purchase only Burt's Bees lip balms. My nail polishes ranges from Sally Hansen to a no name Asian brand. All of these products works great for me.

Fashion
If you don't know this by now, I have size 2 children feet so straight off the bat, I can't even buy name brand shoes if I wanted to. Most of my clothes are from Forever 21, H&M, Bluenotes, Urban Planet, Garage, Urban Behaviour and Sirens. I have trouble spending more than $30 on a piece of clothing item except for jeans. I'm not a fashion expert but I dress well enough, if I say so myself. I shop smartly so I grab things that are on sale and/or cheap but still fashionable. I guess you can say I normally look for dupes of similar styles. I also enjoy thrifting and buying no name brand clothes because they're fashionable and cheap. I really don't see myself spending $100 on brand names such as Guess, Juicy, LV, etc. when I can get a great looking bag for $20-$30 and a look alike blouse for only $15.

Electronics
If you must ask, I probably don't cheap out on electronics. I mean, I wouldn't be spending $1,000 on a laptop but I wouldn't get a low brand/no name laptop just to save $200. For all my life, I've only had HP laptops which have worked fine for me. I could have gone with Acer, Lenovo, etc. but HP was the most popular. I have an iPhone 5 and a Samsung tablet. When it came to my tablet, I wanted an iPad but came to the conclusion that the Samsung tablet would be better suited for me and my budget. Would I ever get an iPad? Only to gift to my significant other but I don't see myself using an iPad because I find the Samsung Galaxy more convenient for me.

Others
I love dollar store dupes. Why spent $3 for yellow cleaning gloves when I can get them for $1? Why should I spend the extra $2 just to a Mr. Clean glove when they do the exact same thing?

Wednesday, February 12, 2014

Love is Love [Valentine's Day 2014]

Let me hop onto the express train of Valentine's Day posts. And, as we all know, V-Day is just around the corner... (yay!!)

To be honest, I did not expect to be spending Valentine's Day alone this year. My break up back in December caught me by surprised and I'm still heartbroken by it. I'll share my story with you guys when I figure out everything. 

But, despite the unfortunate turn of events, I don't find myself hating Valentine's Day. If I'm single, it's just another day. Given my circumstances, I'll get bummed out when I wake up but I'll get through the day. If I'm in a relationship, it'll be a day of love but honestly, shouldn't we be expressing our love to our significant other regularly without a calendar telling us to do so?

I'm reading all these post about tips on surviving V-Day alone, benefits on being single, etc. etc.

Let's just take a step back and remind ourselves that Valentine's Day is a day of love. And love comes in many, many, many different types of forms. V-Day is not dedicated to our SO. If Valentine's Day is a day of love, show your love to your parents, your siblings, your best friends, your dog, or even your neighbour that you say 'good morning' to every day.

I think a lot of us need to remember that love comes from the people around us. We shouldn't have to look up 'tips on how to survive Valentine's if you're single' or 'top 10 things to do if you're single'. So what if you're single? Treat Valentine's Day like any other day. Or, buy a rose for your mother, buy chocolates for your best friend, and hell, even buy a bag of treats for your pet. We express our love to our significant other almost on a daily basis so why not use the day to express your love for your best friend that helped you through high school?

Valentine's Day is just another day. There's no need to hate Feb. 14th. If you're really bitter about it, switch your perspective about love and realize that family/friends love, pet love, neighbourly love, or whatever love (even blog love!) is worth celebrating and being thankful for.

Love is Love.

Tuesday, February 11, 2014

The Moment When I Put on a Sports Bra and I Turn into a Man


Umm... who hasn't taken a selfie in their sports bra just before the workout session? I wish I knew how to make a top bun so I can at least look like a girl. Friends (and future husband), are you embarrassed to have me in your life yet?

This is why small chested girls shouldn't buy a cover-up sports bra. I look like a dude, but seriously... don't call me Jason. Don't get me wrong, as someone who prefers to spend her days on her butt, $8 for a bra is a good deal compared to spending $50 on an item I'd wear only 1% of the 365 days. (I purchased this online with free shipping so I never got a chance to try it on).

I mean... I can show off just a little bit with the bras above costing about $50 BUT I work out at home... in my room. With my dog as the only gawker. 

I gotta impress my Maltipoo, you know?
(But perhaps when I can afford a membership and afford the courage to hit the gym, I'll consider one of these bras).

But in all seriousness, one of my New Years resolution is to get fit. One of my favourite bloggers (and honestly, everyone's favourite blogger), Michelle @ Mish Lovin' Life is currently doing the 30 Days Squat Challenge after Beyonce's performance at the... Grammy's? I believe it was the Grammy's but correct me if I'm wrong.

I'm on Day 2 and it's buuuuuuuuuurning already.


If anyone's curious, my routine consist of 1) however amount of squats I gotta do for the day, 2) 20 kick backs for each leg and finally 3) 20 toe taps. I also have a resistant band to help with my arms and if I'm in the mood, I'll do 20 crunches. 

And if I'm not embarrassing myself already with a flat chested sports bra picture, here's a picture of my booty prior to starting the challenge. Let's see if anything changes one month later.

Wait, I'm Chinese so naturally we're born flat everywhere.

Saturday, February 8, 2014

If you're a cheater (in school), you don't deserve a degree!

I don't like welcoming the (long) weekend with a rant but since finishing off another class, I'm just so enraged by people that cheat on paper!

I'm a little goody-two-shoes; I've never cheated on any of my quizzes and tests (but, I will admit I've cheated on projects and assignments but I believe they don't matter as much as final exams). I remember the first time I got in trouble for cheating back in 4th grade - the guy sitting next to me, Zack* was copying my social studies test... word for word (biggest mistake ever!)! The teacher called us both over the next day and asked why our test papers were exactly the same. I didn't know what to do but denied that I was copying, and after a 20 minutes interrogation, Zack finally admits to cheating and ended up redoing the test.

I remember in high school, a teacher showed us this short documentary about parents helping their children cheat in university and those students that cheated with the help of their parents are now your lawyers and doctors. How sick is that? Do you want to go to a doctor that couldn't even pass his exams? I would never want to visit a professional that cheated in their academic career!

I work hard for my grades and if I fail or do poorly, I'd admit that I didn't study enough. I would never cheat, even if I know I'd fail.

I have classmates that cheats on a daily basis. We have quizzes/short tests and these kids will whip out their cellphones and starts Googling the answers. Easy questions that everyone in the course should be able to answer!

Just a few days ago, a girl and I was absent during a quiz day and my professor was nice enough to allow us to do it in the other room. I was confident because I knew the material well. Another student texted the girl the answer sheet to the quiz (because he's done it already) and when the other student asked me, "Do you want the answers too? I'll text it to you."
"No, I don't have my phone with me. It's okay." I replied.
The student was willing to lend me his phone... at that point, I told him, "No thanks, I'd rather just do the quiz without cheating."
 The girl looked guilty so she said, "Yeah, same here. I'd rather do it without cheating."

Let me tell you... one minute into the quiz, she whipped out her phone for the answers. I was mad, frustrated and annoyed with her and the cheaters I gotta deal with. She deliberately stayed behind til I was finished so the professor wouldn't suspect how a low academic student finished first. In the end, I still got the higher mark.

Every course that I'm with these cheaters, they cheat on daily quizzes, midterms, finals. How stupid is that? If you can't grasp the concepts being taught for the course, then you deserve to fail and repeat the course. You repeat it until you understand it. Don't rely on me or other people to cheat off on.

If I had a university, I would automatically suspend/kick the student out of the school, regardless. I have no tolerance for cheaters. I bust my ass off working and studying and these little assholes get a decent passing grade while partying every night.

Would you trust a business manager that cheated his way to his degree? Would you consider hiring an accountant that faked her way through school?

Ugh!

(And yes, I've told my campus advisors... they didn't do anything about the problem.)

Friday, February 7, 2014

Friday's Five (Underrated) Canadian TV Shows

I remember back in high school, one of my teachers talked about our Canadian culture. She asked how many Canadian authors can we list, Canadian TV shows/movies, Canadian singers, etc.

To my dismay, it was embarrassing to struggle with listing Canadian artists. Canada (and perhaps the entire world) is so heavily influenced by American arts. Most of our Canadians artists (mainly actors and actresses) makes their living off American TV shows and movies. Almost every TV show we love to binge to and every movie we indulge in is Americian.

As a proud Canadian, I would love to support the Canadian arts. I want to see Canada "make it big" in the entertainment world. I mean, we're huge in the sports world, (yay hockey!!!) but I feel Canada is undiscovered around the world.

In hopes to raising awareness to Canadian arts, I'm presenting you my five favourite Canadian TV shows! I hope you guys are willing to take a chance, stream/download an episode and fall in love with these wonderful shows!

Global TV | Wikipedia | IMDb
I can gush about Rookie Blue non-stop. Before the series even aired on Global, I was extremely excited from all the commercials. If you love drama, you'll love this series. Rookie Blue is a drama (with a side of romance, duh!) about several 'rookie' police officers that just graduated from the policing academy. Although they're riding with mentors, they face situations the police academy has never taught them and is constantly learning. Each rookie is out to prove something about themselves.

Before I say anything, I want to point out that this show is entirely made out of Canadian actors! Holllla! It's shot out in Toronto, Ontario and it's so Canadian, you can actually see Canadian currency being used. Canadian jokes and lingos. There is nothing American about this show. I also love how the producers give each character their own challenges and story lines and wraps everything up so beautifully at the end of the show. Everytime I mention this show to a friend, they're instantly hooked onto it.

CBC TV | Wikipedia | IMDb
I found Mr. D when Netflix recommended this series based on my likings. After the first episode, I found myself laughing halfway through the season before the night is even over. Long story short, Mr. D is a comedy about a high school teacher "faking it, til he makes it". I recommend Mr. D for those that enjoy comedy and high school settings.

Like Rookie Blue, Mr. D is made up of a cast of Canadian actors. Jerry Dee (Mr. D) is an actual stand up comedian and writes the script for Mr. D. Shot in Nova Scotia, this series is hilarious! Aside from New Girl and Big Bang Theory, Mr. D never fails to crack me up. And the fact that he's a high school social studies teacher makes it even better since I love history! I read the comments on Netflix and a few said his humour is used to make fun of people, but I didn't find it insulting in any way.

CBC TV | Wikipedia | IMDb
Although the Dragons' Den franchise is based in Japan, Dragons' Den Canada is another Canadian TV show. For those who don't know what Dragons' Den is, it's a reality TV show where entrepreneurs goes into the "den" and asks for investments (and potential partnerships) with the "dragons". I'm not a business person, but I love this show for some reason. It's entertaining to see regular Canadians coming up with new products and seeing if they succeed or they failed. Some of the entrepreneurs get humiliated on national television for poor business presentations or stupid ideas.

Wikipedia | IMDb
 This is pretty much the early Canadian version of Lizzie McGuire. Ready or Not follows best friends, Amanda and "Busy" as they go through middle and high school, family and friends issues, and of course, puberty and boys! Like Lizzie McGuire, Ready and Not is essentially a show that teaches girls about being a teenager.

Wikipedia | IMDb
I love horror, even as a kid so you can easily assume that I enjoyed 'Are You Afraid of the Dark?'. This series is based on scary stories told by a group of teenagers that meet up every night around a camp fire. I remember some stories were literally scary, as in, you don't want to be in the dark alone scary, and then there were some that just left you... eh, that's it?

It's similar to Goosebumps but I always enjoyed Goosebump stories over campfire stories but nonetheless, it's another great Canadian thriller show!

Of course, there's many more great Canadian television shows out there such as Degrassi (although I never enjoyed it myself), Flashpoint, Heartland, etc. I didn't include them because I've never seen them or enjoyed them but the ratings for each show go against my opinions. 

I don't want to be bias, but I really recommend Rookie Blue. It's probably my favourite choice out of the five, haha.

How much do you love Canadian entertainment?

Tuesday, February 4, 2014

Awkwardly growing out my bangs...

I have had straight bangs for a while. I first got them in China 2011 and I've been having them on and off. During my "on" periods, I'll have straight bangs for months leading to half a year to a year. My "off" periods only last a couple of months before I get straight bangs again :(


I finally got off my lazy ass and went to get my side bangs today! I wanted them a few months back but everytime I went to the salon thinking I'd get side bangs... I back out last minute and ask for a trim.

I also got my eyebrows done today! The problem with straight bangs is that it hides my eyebrows so I don't maintain them anymore.


Let the awkward stages of growing out bangs begin! I got them done for only $5 at some Asian salon down the street... I hope they did a good job :/ Bangs literally take like 5-10 minutes, so I can't justify spending $10+ on just my bangs.


I don't want to live a life of bobby pins... pleeeeeeease grow faster, bangs!
I'll leave y'all with a picture of my eyebrows ^__^ I love how groomed they are.. if only they'd stay like this forever :( my lazy butt doesn't like leaving my bed.

Monday, February 3, 2014

My Deepest Fears (2AM Thoughts)

One of my "expressive" self portraits when I did photography waaaaay back then.
I'm brutally honest with myself and my experiences. I feel like I shouldn't have to hide them and I don't fear people using it against me because I'm at peace with my past (for majority of it). I've lied, I've stolen, and I've been a bully at one point. I would share them if anyone asks.

Last month, I shared my story of being in an abusive relationship with my rapist. I'm not embarrassed or afraid of sharing it. But for some reason, I've always been afraid of sharing my deepest fears. In my years old blogging, I've never shared at least one of my deepest fears (and we're not talking about spiders or heights) and of course, I've never shared my fears with my closest friends.

I'm 20 years old, but I feel too mature for my age. I know how to "live in the present" but my mind will always wonders to the future. No one, in my age group, that I know of, is stressed at night thinking about how to live in the world's second most expensive city, and first expensive in North America. No one is thinking about their career path or their marriage/family life.

As a kid, growing up, I pictured myself graduating from university, getting married by 25 and hopefully have my first kid before 30 years old. I envisioned myself living in a nice condo with the perfect husband and financially stable with great careers.

In no particular orders, my deepest fears, written for the world to see. Hopefully, by sharing it for the first time, my mind could be at ease.

1. Not getting over my heart break/not being able to find love
I haven't shared this with anyone yet but back in December 2013, The Boy and I broke up, the reason being "timing isn't right for both of us". I've been in previous relationships, but The Boy was my first love and my first heart break. I have a fear that I won't be able to get over him because I actually felt like he was "the one". A lot of you guys may laugh and shake your head, telling me I'm young and that someone better will come, but I honestly feel like the better half of me is gone. I'm afraid that I'll be holding onto this... hope, that The Boy and I can try again when the time is right (his idea, not mines). It's been months and it still gets to me. I've tried to go out and meeting new people, not to date but just to meet new people, and I have the guilt that I'm cheating. I know "time heals everything" but knowing the way my heart works, I feel like it wouldn't. I've never missed or felt this way about someone before. I've been in long term relationships and it didn't affect me as much as this break up.

Perhaps, I might be able to get over The Boy. But I'm afraid I won't be able to find love. Vancouver is an unfriendly city. My dating life is ups and downs. I have a high wall when it comes to letting people in and I'm afraid that that wall might be holding me back. I'm way to picky in terms of finding a potential lover. If one thing is off, I cross the boy off completely. I know I shouldn't being flaws are in everyone, but I can't help it.

2. Being single at 25+/not married
Following #1, I have the fear of being single in my mid 20s, or even in my 30s and later. It seems that it's very common for people to be dating in their late 20s BUT, if I'm not in a long term relationship with a marriage on the path, I just feel afraid. I'm afraid that I'll be alone when everyone around me is getting married/starting families. I have older friends and I pity them because they're 31/32 years old and not even dating. I don't want to be dating when I'm 35 years old - I want to be married to the love of my life by then.

3. Not being able to have kids
I know I can get pregnant, but I'm afraid that I won't be able to. I'm underweight, skinny, and overall I have a small body. I'm healthy but I'm afraid my body won't be able to handle the pregnancy as it progresses. When I look at everyone that's been pregnant, (eg. my mom), their body is bigger than mines and can easily carry a child but I feel like I'm just... too small and too skinny. 

4. Dying after childbirth
If I am able to maintain an entire 9 months pregnancy journey, I'm afraid that I'll die after childbirth. I know it's a dark thought but it came about when I've seen several movies with the mother dying after childbirth. Yes, the plot was taken place without modern technology, but those movies sort of drilled a fear in me. I can't even imagine putting through my husband the guilt of pain and joy if I died.

5. Not being successful
I'm studying HR and that profession is in high demand. However, I'm afraid that I might end up in a super small company with limited growth potential. I want to grow and eventually be a HR manager or supervisor of some sort. I don't want to be stuck in an entry-level job.

That being said, I'm also afraid that I won't be successful enough to own/maintain a home, particularly in Vancouver, BC. Even if I was married, I'm afraid my income won't contribute much to the mortgage. I'm afraid that my income won't provide a good living as in being able to live comfortably without worrying about meeting ends meet with bills and grocery shopping. I want to be able to have a disposable income that I can treat to vacations and goods (not everyday but perhaps once or twice a year).

6. Disappointing my parents
They sacrifice a lot. One of my biggest fears is not being able to repay them in some way. I'm not saying make enough for them to retire right now, but I want to be able to take a portion of the weight off their shoulders. I want to be able to give them a vacation they haven't had in a while, or a fancy dinner they don't have the time to eat because they're constantly working. If you're Asian, you'll understand how hardworking Asian parents can be.

7. Not having friends in the long run
I like to be alone... so alone, to the point that I pushed away my friends a few years ago. I regret that deeply because the group of girls that I was with in high school... I only see them a few times a year. The four of them makes plans but never invites me because they know I won't come. That's a shitty feeling. I tried to reconnect with them but I feel like there's this distance that will never be able close again. They come to my birthday, we message from time to time, but it's not the same. They tell me they'll always be there for me, but even I don't know if I can believe that.

I'm sure there's more but these are the first few that popped in my mind. I know I'm 20 and a lot can happen in one year, but my deepest fears are something along the lines of those points. I have ten years to get married but I'm still worrying now... at 20. I don't know why, but that's what consumes my nightly thoughts.

PS. KIDNAPPING!
I hate going home alone after spending a night out. I live in a safe area BUT reading all these news articles about missing kids and women makes me extremely nervous to walk home alone in the dark. My house is about one and half block from the closest bus stops but even that 5 minutes walk gives me the chills. Back when I drove, I left the house as 2am for McDonalds' and the walk from my front door to my car was nerve-wracking already.

Sunday, February 2, 2014

The TMI Tag

Hi guys!

I got tagged by Megan to do a TMI tag. I'm an honest person so if you'd like to know more about me, feel free to read all the answers!

1. What are you wearing?
It's 1:35AM soooo sweats and a long sleeve shirt. I need to hit the sack soon...zzzzZZzzZ

2. Ever been in love?
Yes

3. Ever had a terrible break up?
Yes. It was so long ago, and I don't even remember what it was about but nonetheless, it was horrible

4. How tall are you?
5'1" ^_~

5. How much do you weigh?
As of this exact moment, 87.7 lbs.. which is really disheartening to find out.

6. Any tattoos?
None... yet! My paycheques will be cleared on Feb. 7th so by then I'll have the funds for a tattoo so if I don't back out any time, hopefully I'll get it in the next few weeks or so! But, when I want something, I usually go for it.

7. Any piercings?
I love piercings! I have a total of 8 on my ears (4 each; 2 earlobes, 2 cartilages), nose, tongue, and navel. A total of 11 piercings which bugs me because I like even numberes.

8. OTP?
I don't care, but I've always been a Harry/Hermione fan.

9. Favourite show?
It's going to be really girly but I love Pretty Little Liars the most. Vampire Diaries, TBBT, New Girl, Glee and Switched at Birth follows. I just finished Terra Nova which made me frustrated that Fox and Netflix didn't pick up a second season!

10. Favourite bands?
Simple Plan ♥ been obsessed with them for AGES. I also enjoy Imagine Dragon... was supposed to attend their concert this month but I returned the tickets :(

11. Something you miss?
Truthfully (and cliche), a boy. It's a story that I'm not ready to share yet but nonetheless, it's about a boy.

12. Favourite song?
Friday, I'm in Love by The Cure.
Every weekend I jam to this. Everytime it comes on, my entire mood lights up.

13. How old are you?
20 years old... finally in my 20s!

14. Zodiac sign?
Libra

15. Quality you look for in a partner?
I'm a picky person. I like my man to be taller than me, older (max 4/5 years), working or studying (I can't be in a relationship with a bum). And of course the whole, cute, nice smile, confidence, good sense of humour, etc.

16. Favourite quote?
If you've been following my blog, you'll know it's "Be at peace, not in pieces."

17. Favourite actor?
I'm a big action fan so it's most likely Bruce Willis, haha. Go ahead and laugh.

18. Favourite colour?
Blue!

19. Loud music or soft?
I like soft. I have no idea but it just matches my mood most of the time.

20. Where do you go when you're sad?
My bed and nap. Always in my room, locked up.

21. How long does it take you to shower?
20 to 30 minutes.

22. How long does it take you to get ready in the morning?
Because I don't wear make up on a daily basis, usually about 20 minutes including picking out what to wear.

23. Ever been in a physical fight?
No and hopefully never will!

24. Turn on?
Scent. The boy I love wears deodorant that smells soooo good, he doesn't wear cologne. I got so used to that scent, I feel... weird if I don't smell it off him.

25. Turn off?
Arrogance, being a bum, and a "scumbag Steve". I also can't stand men and even people that wears "gangster" clothes.

26. The reason I started blogging?
I wanted to document my life and experiences. Essentially, I just wanted a(n) (online) diary. As years went on, I incorporated reviews, wishlists, beauty/fashion, etc. into my personal posts too.

27. Fears?
Animals... all animals!, balloons, the dark, being alone in elevators, being unsuccessful and being alone/never marry in the future.

28. Last thing that made you cry?
Remembering the last few months and feeling this emptiness.

29. Last time you said you love someone?
If you count writing it, then early January. But I haven't said I Love You verbally in years.

30. Meaning behind your blog name?
I. LOVEEEE. Sushi. 
LOOOOOVE.

31. Last book you read?
Petals on the Wind by V.C. Andrews

32. The book you're currently reading?
Hitler by Ian Kershaw. I'm a big Hitler/WWII fan.

33. Last show you watched?
Monsters in Me... pretty much a TV show about deadly parasites and victims of them. Kinda creepy to realize how easily it is to get deadly parasites despite being in a developed nation.

34. Last person you talked to?
My mummy.

35. The relationship between you and the last person you texted?
A friend from uni. She and I talk and hang out but I wouldn't consider her a BFF.

36. Favourite food?
In case you haven't noticed... sushi.
And Indian food!

37. Place you want to visit?
Punjab, India, Montreal, Canada and San Fransisco, California... oh, and England. All of England!

38. Last place you were?
TD Bank, sorting out my paycheques and bank stuff.

39. Do you have a crush?
Yes because he's also the guy I love.

40. Last time you kissed someone?
:/ November 2013.. you can probably piece the puzzle together by now.

41. Last time you were insulted?
Umm... I don't get insulted that much, if anything, don't think I've ever got insulted to my face. I've confronted people that talked behind my back a few months ago.

42. Favourite flavour of sweets?
When in doubt, orange!

43. What instruments do you play?
I had the very special privilege of learning the recorder from 4th to 7th grade. Ugh. I also attempted the guitar.

44. Favourite piece of jewellery?
I received a nice necklace for Christmas in 2012 and haven't taken it off since.

45. Last sport you played?
Hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha!
We're talking years ago...

46. Last song you sang?
I'm singing Friday, I'm in Love by The Cure since I had the video playing.

47. Favourite chat up line?
I've never used one before. I mean, if I ever found a funny one, I'll send it to the boy but nonetheless, I've never actually used one to pick up a guy.

48. Have you ever used it?
Nope ^^

49. Last time you hung out with anyone?
I like being alone... so... if you count my classmates, then Thursday afternoon.

50. Who should answer these questions next?
Anyone who read all 50 answers!

If you're dying for more, drop a question in the comment box and I'll answer! :D

Saturday, February 1, 2014

#2014BloggerChallenge - Book Review: Flowers in the Attic by V.C. Andrews

Flowers in the Attic on Goodreads
I have never heard of Flowers in the Attic or V.C. Andrews. I guess in my generation, the book (published in 1979) would be considered "too old". I've heard a lot about this book, mostly for its taboo about incest and rape. In today's modern society, I think this book wouldn't be deemed as taboo but back in the 80's, I understand why high schools would ban this book.

However,  the entertainment world has been buzzing over the remake of Flowers in the Attic to a TV movie by Lifetime; it was released on January 18th, 2014. So I ended up watching the movie first before reading the book.

Does it make me a bad or "messed up" person that I fairly enjoyed the movie and the book? I hope not.

Flowers in the Attic is based upon the four Dollaganger kids, Christoper, Cathy, Carrie and Cory. Along with their mother, Corrine, the four of them are forced to live with Corrine's filthy rich grandparents when their father died in an accident which has forever changed the Dollagangers' life.

I'm a bookworm and enjoyed the book very much that I finished reading it within 2 days. Because it was written in the 80's, the style and dialogue used to write this novel is much different than what I'm normally used to. It's some getting use to but it caught on very quickly after a few chapters.

It's a page turner. The novel picks up fairly quickly and immediately you can see the character development happening in Corrine and the relationship build up amongst the children. This book has a dark theme, and throughout the novel, you'll feel disgusted by the plot. It's amazing to see how Andrews incorporated that into the novel and present such a heartless character and plot. 

Andrews illustrated the novel to the point where you feel like the plot is dancing right in front of you. Each character has a different personality that grows tremendously by the end of the novel. It's like growing up with the characters as the chapters went by. Every horrific event that happens is so vivid, you can feel the expressions, sadness, and pain through words Andrew has written. The story is told through Cathy's experiences.

Despite its taboo scenes and topics in this novel, I think it's a great book. If anything, it's so hyped up and popularized because of incest and rape. We read books about rape but how often do we read books with incest written in the plot?

If you're interested in stepping outside the genres of high school romances and hot CEOs, I'd recommend giving Flowers in the Attic a try. It's a dark twisted novel with secrets that'll keep you turning the pages for more.

Flowers in the Attic is book 1 out of 4 of the Dollaganger series. I instantly jumped into book #2, Petals on the Wind and it was great but not as great as Flowers in the Attic.

If you're not one to read, I recommend watching the TV movie produced by Lifetime.